"don't know why i'm still afraid, if you weren't real i would make you up"
ok so my live journals have been kinda pointless lately...
i'm still trying to accept it, it doesn't come easy.
i'm kinda broken and i'm just trying to fix myself.
it's just stupid. our situation.
i never went through anything like this before.
memories hurt sometimes.
but if you want to talk about reality you can't because
nobody really knows what reality really is.
all you can be is real and hope that is close enough.
i feel really sick. after the prom stuff i just crashed at julia's
house because i was soo mentally and physically exhausted.
i wish i was a tree.
and a flower.
side note: i really hate card magic tricks!!! josh made me realize that.
prom was really a blast though. it was prom! seriously. It was Beautiful! i had great people around me. and you know what i have great people around me all the time. last week made me realize that allot.
you know someday we will all meet in the middle. and thats when it
will all make sense.